Have you ever looked back at your life and thought…
“Who even was that person?”
That’s exactly how I feel when I reflect on myself as a mother in the New Age compared to now, walking with Christ.
It’s been about a year and a half since I became a born-again Christian, but honestly, it feels like forever ago that I was immersed in New Age practices. Sometimes I barely recognize that version of me. And to be completely honest, it might also be motherhood and the lack of sleep blurring those memories (any mama can relate!). But when I look back, one thing is clear: God has brought me home. Even though I’m still a new believer in many ways, there’s a deep peace, a sense of belonging in Christ, that makes me feel like I’ve always been His.
What the New Age Really Is
Before I share my motherhood journey, I want to lay a foundation—because not every Christian mama knows what the New Age actually is.
The New Age is a broad, mix-and-match spiritual movement. It blends bits and pieces from all kinds of traditions: astrology, energy work, reiki, yoga, meditation, witchcraft, goddess worship, crystals, channeling—you name it. Its core message is: “Find your own truth. Awaken the divine within you. Ascend to higher consciousness.”
It sounds appealing, but it rejects Jesus Christ as the only way, truth, and life.
I was not dabbling lightly. I was a Reiki Master, an energy healer, a tarot and oracle card reader. I studied astrology obsessively, practiced witchcraft and goddess worship, taught yoga, and even believed in ascension and starseeds. My entire identity was wrapped in those practices.
Motherhood in the New Age
When I became pregnant with my first child, I truly believed I had “manifested” her. I did rituals under the new moon, wrote down intentions, and asked the “universe” to bless me with a baby. Looking back now, I see how watered-down and distorted my idea of God was.
My daughter’s name even reflected my New Age beliefs. I chose it based on astrology and sun symbolism, because I was heavily into sun worship at the time. While I don’t regret her name—it’s beautiful and God’s creation itself inspired it—I wasn’t seeing her through God’s eyes. I was seeing her through her natal chart.
After she was born, I rushed back into my old life. Within three months, I was seeing Reiki clients, hosting women’s circles, and trying to keep my “healer” identity alive. But the reality of motherhood hit me hard: colic, sleepless nights, exhaustion. Suddenly, yoga, journaling, and rituals no longer fit into my day.
And here’s the truth: I grew resentful. I thought I was supposed to be this calm, goddess-like mother—but instead, I was angry, frustrated, and desperate for relief. I turned to cannabis to escape, and for a while, it numbed me. But the cycle always ended the same—me, back in the exhaustion and emptiness I couldn’t fix on my own.
Motherhood in the New Age, for me, was about proving myself. Proving that I was still special, still powerful, still in control. But deep down, I was crumbling.
The Breaking Point
It wasn’t until my second pregnancy that things truly began to shift. That season became the lowest point of my life. No ritual, no affirmation, no “self-love” practice could fix the emptiness I felt.
I was spiritually exhausted. I started to question everything I had built my life on. And in that place of brokenness, Jesus met me.
When I surrendered my life to Him, everything changed. His peace filled me in a way I had never experienced. His Word says:
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.” (2 Corinthians 5:17)
And that was my reality. The old me was gone.
Leaving the New Age Behind
After I gave my life to Jesus, I walked away from it all—tarot, astrology, reiki, sage, cannabis, yoga. The practices I once thought gave me strength now felt heavy, counterfeit, and empty.
For the first time, I didn’t need rituals to feel whole. Jesus was enough. His grace was sufficient. His power met me in my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).
Motherhood changed too. I stopped seeing it as something I had to “get through” and began to see it as the holy calling it truly is. My home became my ministry, my children became gifts entrusted to me by God, and motherhood became a path of sanctification—God refining me daily.
Motherhood as a Christian
Now, motherhood doesn’t mean I have it all together. I still get exhausted, lose patience, and struggle with overwhelm. But the difference is this: I no longer run to false escapes. I run to Jesus.
Instead of journaling intentions to the moon, I pray. Instead of asking spirit guides for wisdom, I open God’s Word. Instead of resenting my role, I see it as a privilege to raise my children in the Lord.
“Cast all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7)
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind.” (Romans 12:2)
Motherhood as a Christian is not easier, but it is simpler. I don’t need to prove myself. I simply need to abide in Him.
To the Mom Coming Out of the New Age
Mama, if you are in the process of leaving the New Age, or if you feel torn between two worlds, I want you to know: your identity is no longer in rituals or in striving. Your identity is in Christ.
“So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” (John 8:36)
Motherhood in Christ is not about perfection. It’s about surrender. It’s about letting Jesus carry the weight you were never meant to carry alone.
To the Mom Still in the New Age
If you’re still practicing New Age spirituality, I want to speak to you with compassion. I know what it feels like. I remember believing it with all my heart. But those rituals, those crystals, those star charts—they won’t give you lasting peace.
When they stop working, and they eventually will, I pray you turn to Jesus. He is the peace you’ve been searching for.
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you.” (John 14:27)
Closing Thoughts
Motherhood is a refining fire. It humbles us, stretches us, and sanctifies us. But in Christ, it also becomes one of the most beautiful callings we could ever walk in.
I am no longer the mother who needed to manifest her child or prove her worth through rituals. I am a mother redeemed by grace, entrusted by God, and strengthened daily by His Spirit.
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